God must be on my side today...you see, i was running late in filing my application form in ust... i only learned yesterday the requirements for application and the deadline is today...so i got to school and got my transcript of records, had my birth certificate photocopied and went to dr. clav to get her details coz she's one of the people in my character referral thing...and so when i arrived in the faculty room the secretary wasn't there(probably wandering in the corridors of sj) and i talked to another prof and she told me to wait...and the sec. arrived so i asked her if dr. clav is in the faculty room...and she said" ewan ko" i wanted to strangle her...she could have told to wait while she looks inside... she should be aware that her salary comes from the students so she should do her job...to serve us...and i got 1 more problem, i have no siggy of the dean for my certificate of good moral character...then it rained...i thought i couldn't pass my form today...luckily, may and i got to ust in 1 piece and without a scratch...so passed the form...and we had to go to the main building to pay the 1000 pesos worth of processing fee...so paid it...then when we were outside, i turned left(to go back to where we came from) but may told me that turning right would be nearer to our destination... i am gullible so i believed her... and so we walked...then got lost...good thing i have my sense of direction that day...we were able to find the med building (more like i was able...hehehe) then went home...so tiring...la salle won!!!! but i was not able to watch the game... too bad i didn't get to see how they won...wish there are no classes tomorrow...coz i have an exam...waaah....
Thursday, September 30, 2004
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
i have been listening to kidney thieves for a long time now, and i like free's voice...here's how i see her...i see her as someone who is the dominant one...her lover will treat her like a queen...or maybe even a goddess...i see her as someone who could put a spell over a person...make him do whatever she has in mind...well, that is just my opinion... mmm i feel like that right now...nyahahaha
Sunday, September 26, 2004
right now i am writing in here when i should be studying for tomorrow (coz i dunno whether la salle won or not)...i was talking to this guy earlier...he's nice...he gave me a different perspective of the picture coz usually i always see a beautiful scenario...he made me think of things that are possible to happen...if he's reading this, hey there! thanks!!!....
i've got no idea on what to write...i just have this urge to keep on updating this thing...hmmm...lalala....ok back to my old lazy self again...oh i'm always lazy...
...going back to studying...
i've got no idea on what to write...i just have this urge to keep on updating this thing...hmmm...lalala....ok back to my old lazy self again...oh i'm always lazy...
...going back to studying...
Friday, September 24, 2004
background music: love song (snake river conspiracy)
location: here in the room i share with my sisters
*uhm no, i am not trying to imitate the format in live journal
usually...err most of the time....ok, i should use always...always,it is a one way sort of thing...and that makes you feel like a stupid piece of shit(nah, maybe just a piece of...crap? ahahaha)...makes you feel desperate...most of the time the last emotion you remember feeling is loneliness(you badly need human warmth...like a hug)...but all of those change when the feeling is reciprocated...hope this lasts for a long time...mmm like forever?
location: here in the room i share with my sisters
*uhm no, i am not trying to imitate the format in live journal
usually...err most of the time....ok, i should use always...always,it is a one way sort of thing...and that makes you feel like a stupid piece of shit(nah, maybe just a piece of...crap? ahahaha)...makes you feel desperate...most of the time the last emotion you remember feeling is loneliness(you badly need human warmth...like a hug)...but all of those change when the feeling is reciprocated...hope this lasts for a long time...mmm like forever?
Tuesday, September 21, 2004
we are moving to the new house this saturday, and i don't know what i am feeling... i got mixed emotions here...don't know whether i should be happy or not...who am i kidding? i should be happy coz i have waited all my life to have my own room...now i will have a piece of privacy...
i won't have a phoneline for almost a month and now you are going to a fucking roadtest again...your boss has good timing...oh well, work is work...so you gotta do it so i'll be happy...mmm this looks like a letter...i don't care...this blog is mine right? so i can do what i wanna do...no need to tell me what i should or should not be doing...
may told me to give her my books for med if ever i decided to get married after college...as if that is possible...you see i've got only 6 months left before graduation, and that is so little time to get a boyfriend...ahahaha... and is that really what i want? i can't persuade him to marry me...ahahaha...i'm a shy person, i can't do that...but i can leave hints(good thing you are not reading this), uhm right
i get this feeling of laziness... i am getting loads of it...i wanna crawl into a cocoon and come out when everything is as pretty as a butterfly
what i hate most are pretentious individuals...i hate it when they try to be someone they are not...especially when i see their real identity in their faces and then all of a sudden, like morphing, their features change...that's the time when i want to slap somebody or tell them that they don't have to pretend. i can accept them for who they are. i also don't like it when people try to keep their feelings...it's better if you would say what you really want, coz that way, you won't keep on making yourself pissed off of the other person
don't...stop...ahahaha...right...i'm sure you'd love to hear that
Sunday, September 19, 2004
this morning, i was having doubts whether i should attend the nmat review or not. good thing my dad told me that i should coz if i didn't i would have missed the lecturer for the day...in a way, i envy him coz he's so free...he does what he wants...but he is responsible at the same time...i guess that's what i am lacking...when he talked about his gf, i wanted to find that girl and spank her...ahahaha...coz a lot of girls end up with no good guys who just leave the girl when he gets her pregnant, and here's our lecturer who loves her so much and wants to marry her and she spoils the moment by saying she doesn't want to get married...i think i am a bit harsh...we have different goals in life... i guess she has plans for herself...and my plans are probably so much different from hers...
may and i went to robinson's to have the pictures printed and while waiting for the pictures, we ate...so me being my talkative self, i started "pouring my heart out" ahahaha... mmm i want to keep everything inside my head but i can't...so i just say things which are milder than what is in my head ahahaha...i think i made her confused coz i was saying things indirectly or lacking information...uhm if i don't keep my mouth, i think my image will be ruined...mmm ewan...wag mo na lang basahin to...my mind is all jumbled right now...i don't what to believe...i don't know if i should believe what people tell me...mmm can i just sleep for a long time and then wake up when everything has settled down?...
not yet done with the intro and materials and method of our thesis...mmm not yet in the mood...
may and i went to robinson's to have the pictures printed and while waiting for the pictures, we ate...so me being my talkative self, i started "pouring my heart out" ahahaha... mmm i want to keep everything inside my head but i can't...so i just say things which are milder than what is in my head ahahaha...i think i made her confused coz i was saying things indirectly or lacking information...uhm if i don't keep my mouth, i think my image will be ruined...mmm ewan...wag mo na lang basahin to...my mind is all jumbled right now...i don't what to believe...i don't know if i should believe what people tell me...mmm can i just sleep for a long time and then wake up when everything has settled down?...
not yet done with the intro and materials and method of our thesis...mmm not yet in the mood...
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
is it possible to run away from all of this? oh my, this is just the first week in school and i'm feeling stressed already...and my habit of delaying things is not helping...oh not at all...can i call for another week of vacation?...i guess not...this day i developed a talent...i was able to tolerate the scoldings(should i call it that way? or should i say opinion?)of dr. clav...or maybe i was not listening to her, that's why i wasn't affected...but i recall everything she said registered in my mind, so i guess i was really able to tolerate her...and another thing, i think the snails are angry at us, coz they picked the right time for the aquarium to have a leak....right when we are all near our destination...mmm what else went wrong today?... oh got the contact prints, and i am pa-cute in all of the pictures...
got lots of pictures...looks fine...brown and green look good together...just not in the way you are thinking? huh?! mmm...inside joke...with myself hehehe
got lots of pictures...looks fine...brown and green look good together...just not in the way you are thinking? huh?! mmm...inside joke...with myself hehehe
You Know You're Addicted to Internet When...
You kiss you girlfriend's home page.
Your bookmarks list takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.
Your eyeglasses have a web site burned into them.
You find yourself brainstorming for new subjects to Google.
You refuse to go to a vacation spot with no electricity and no phone lines.
You finally do take that vacation, but only after buying a cellular modem and a laptop.
You spend half of the plane trip with your laptop on your lap.... and your kid in the overhead compartment.
Your dreams are in HTML.
You find yourself typing "com" after every period when using a word processor.
You turn your computer off and get this awful epmty feeling, like you just pulled the plug of your loved one.
You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.
You start introducing yourself as "Jim at I-I-Net dot net dot au"
Your heart races faster and beats irredgularly each time you see a new WWW site address printed on the TV, even though you've never had heart problems before.
You step out of the room and realize that your roomates have moved and you don't have any idea when it happened.
You turn up the volume read loud when leaving the room so you can hear if anyone IM's you.
You wife drapes a blond wig over the monitor to remind you of what she looks like.
All of your friends have an @ in their names.
Looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice that you've been to all of them.
Your dog has its own webpage.
You believe nothing looks sexier than a man in boxer shorts illuminated by a 17" LCD Flat-Panel Monitor.
You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.
You code your homework in HTML and give your intsructor the URL.
You don't know what sex your three of your closeset friends are, because they have nuetral screennames and you never bothered to ask.
You name your children Google, Friendster and Blogger
You miss more than five meals a week downloading the latest MP3's off Kazaa Lite.
You start looking for hot HTML addresses in public restrooms.
You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back.
Your virtual girlfriend finds a new sweetheart with a larger bandwidth.
You buy a Captain Kirk Chair with a built in keyboard and mouse.
Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer can not come to bed"
The last hottie you picked up was only a jpeg.
You put a pillow case over your laptop so your lover doesn't see it while youre pretending to catch your breath.
You ask a plumber how much it would cost you to replace the chair in front of your computer with a toilet.
You forget what year it is.
You start tilting your head sideways to smile.
You ask a doctor to implant a terrabyte in your brain.
Your sweetie says communication is important in a marriage...so you buy another computer and network them together so that you can IM each other anytime.
As your car crashes through the guardrail on a mountain road, your first instinct is to search for the "back" button.
All of your friends have an @ in their names.
You start using smileys in your snail mail
You bring a bag lunch to the computer.
You have withdrawals if you are away from the computer for more than a few hours.
You take a speed reading course to keep up with the scrolling.
You type faster than you think.
You double click your TV remote.
You can now type over 70 WPM.
You check your e-mail and forget you have real mail.
You go into withdrawals during dinner.
You rank your friends by the amount of bandwith they have.
You have "Googled" all your friends to try to find out anything interesteing that they are not telling you and you can use against them later.
You message someone via IM when they are less than 20 feet away.
The sound of the keys clicking turns you on.
You have more browsers than friends in the real world.
You actually say I-M-O and A-T-M to real friends rather than 'in my opinion' and 'at the moment'. And they give you strange looks.
You run four chat programs all at once... Yahoo Messenger, ICQ, AIM and MSN
You sign off and your screen says you were on for 3 days and 45 minutes.
You purchase a vanity car license plate with your screen name on it.
You say "he he he he" or "heh heh heh" instead of laughing.
You talk on the phone with the same person you are sending an instant message to.
You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.
Your teacher or boss recommends a drug test for the blood shot eyes.
The letters have come off your keyboard from excessive use.
You order pizza online - because you can't be bothered to call.
You say "SCROLL UP" when someone asks what it was you said.
You look at an annoying person off line and wish that you had your ignore button handy.
You enter a room and get greeted by 25 people with {{{hugs}}} and ** kisses**.
You're on the phone and say BRB.
The last movie you've seen was on your Quicktime player.
You kiss you girlfriend's home page.
Your bookmarks list takes 15 minutes to scroll from top to bottom.
Your eyeglasses have a web site burned into them.
You find yourself brainstorming for new subjects to Google.
You refuse to go to a vacation spot with no electricity and no phone lines.
You finally do take that vacation, but only after buying a cellular modem and a laptop.
You spend half of the plane trip with your laptop on your lap.... and your kid in the overhead compartment.
Your dreams are in HTML.
You find yourself typing "com" after every period when using a word processor.
You turn your computer off and get this awful epmty feeling, like you just pulled the plug of your loved one.
You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.
You start introducing yourself as "Jim at I-I-Net dot net dot au"
Your heart races faster and beats irredgularly each time you see a new WWW site address printed on the TV, even though you've never had heart problems before.
You step out of the room and realize that your roomates have moved and you don't have any idea when it happened.
You turn up the volume read loud when leaving the room so you can hear if anyone IM's you.
You wife drapes a blond wig over the monitor to remind you of what she looks like.
All of your friends have an @ in their names.
Looking at a pageful of someone else's links, you notice that you've been to all of them.
Your dog has its own webpage.
You believe nothing looks sexier than a man in boxer shorts illuminated by a 17" LCD Flat-Panel Monitor.
You check your mail. It says "no new messages." So you check it again.
You code your homework in HTML and give your intsructor the URL.
You don't know what sex your three of your closeset friends are, because they have nuetral screennames and you never bothered to ask.
You name your children Google, Friendster and Blogger
You miss more than five meals a week downloading the latest MP3's off Kazaa Lite.
You start looking for hot HTML addresses in public restrooms.
You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom and stop and check your e-mail on the way back.
Your virtual girlfriend finds a new sweetheart with a larger bandwidth.
You buy a Captain Kirk Chair with a built in keyboard and mouse.
Your wife makes a new rule: "The computer can not come to bed"
The last hottie you picked up was only a jpeg.
You put a pillow case over your laptop so your lover doesn't see it while youre pretending to catch your breath.
You ask a plumber how much it would cost you to replace the chair in front of your computer with a toilet.
You forget what year it is.
You start tilting your head sideways to smile.
You ask a doctor to implant a terrabyte in your brain.
Your sweetie says communication is important in a marriage...so you buy another computer and network them together so that you can IM each other anytime.
As your car crashes through the guardrail on a mountain road, your first instinct is to search for the "back" button.
All of your friends have an @ in their names.
You start using smileys in your snail mail
You bring a bag lunch to the computer.
You have withdrawals if you are away from the computer for more than a few hours.
You take a speed reading course to keep up with the scrolling.
You type faster than you think.
You double click your TV remote.
You can now type over 70 WPM.
You check your e-mail and forget you have real mail.
You go into withdrawals during dinner.
You rank your friends by the amount of bandwith they have.
You have "Googled" all your friends to try to find out anything interesteing that they are not telling you and you can use against them later.
You message someone via IM when they are less than 20 feet away.
The sound of the keys clicking turns you on.
You have more browsers than friends in the real world.
You actually say I-M-O and A-T-M to real friends rather than 'in my opinion' and 'at the moment'. And they give you strange looks.
You run four chat programs all at once... Yahoo Messenger, ICQ, AIM and MSN
You sign off and your screen says you were on for 3 days and 45 minutes.
You purchase a vanity car license plate with your screen name on it.
You say "he he he he" or "heh heh heh" instead of laughing.
You talk on the phone with the same person you are sending an instant message to.
You get up in the morning and go online before getting your coffee.
Your teacher or boss recommends a drug test for the blood shot eyes.
The letters have come off your keyboard from excessive use.
You order pizza online - because you can't be bothered to call.
You say "SCROLL UP" when someone asks what it was you said.
You look at an annoying person off line and wish that you had your ignore button handy.
You enter a room and get greeted by 25 people with {{{hugs}}} and ** kisses**.
You're on the phone and say BRB.
The last movie you've seen was on your Quicktime player.
mmm...uhm...hmmm...ahahaha...medyo lang...3 messengers lang ang meron ako wahahaha
Monday, September 13, 2004
i took a sort of personality test, and here's what i got(thanks may for the site)
uh huh first day of classes and i was late...it wasn't my fault...it was my sister's fault...she was enjoying the morning coz her class starts at 7:30...i didn't know that...and she didn't know that mine starts at 7...so gotta blame it all on her ahahaha...i'm so unfair hehehe...ok so i was late, i was planning not to attend my first class coz i thought the prof was strict...when i looked inside the room, i saw this old man talking in front of the class and it seemed like the whole class was serious...then there was this girl who was also late and went inside, so i entered the class...good thing i had the courage(just a little bit of it)to go to class coz if i hadn't i would have missed a lot on the discussion...our prof turned out to be cool and nice and funny, and i think i won't fall asleep on his lecture...ok enough about dr. derry...if we had our paralec on mon and fri, we would be with dr. clav the whole day...ahahaha...she'll be like our classmate...i have a good feeling this term...mmm nancy boy looks cute... but i won't have a crush on him sheena...he's all yours...:D
Sunday, September 12, 2004
...skips around...then stops...runs to the screen...whispers...school starts tomorrow...jumps three times...then runs away...sits down...sulks...
made a photo manipulation, what you see are not just layers. it took me a long time to put everything together. whoever will say that he can do it in 5 minutes, well, uhm... good for you... i learned to do this on my own, i am not a professional. i'm just some biology student who does photo manipulation for fun. oh yeah look closely at the photo...mmm just look closely hahaha... and tell me what you see... oki? :D
click on the pic to view a larger version
Saturday, September 11, 2004
after more than a week of loneliness...yep i was lonely, you didn't notice? i'm happy again...:D now i know how they feel. if only i was awake, i guess it would have been better...
Friday, September 10, 2004
have you ever had the feeling of wanting to be with somebody? no, not just somebody who would go with you to the mall or someone who will share with you their beauty secrets, that would be the role of your friends in your life. this somebody would be the person who understands you even if you don't have to explain anything. do you know the feeling when it's cold and raining outside and you're stuck inside the house, and instead of having soup to lessen the cold, you want to cuddle with somebody?...nope not with mr. teddy the bear but with somebody...are you still reading this? i hope you are coz i'm wasting my time writing this...another instance would be on valentine's day, yeah you could mask the feeling by going out with your friends, but still somehow this feeling will haunt you, maybe not when you are with friends, but still it would pop in your mind sooner or later...still not familiar with this feeling? how about when you watch a romantic movie or while walking in the mall and you see 2 people who are definitely in love with each other(they are so into each other that you could melt those 2 together and they would thank you for doing that), what do you feel? (i wanna kill the people who upload songs that are not so good or songs wherein only a part of the song is being sung for the whole 3 minutes, i downloaded at least 5 of this kind. that's just a bit of an interlude in this blogentry of mine) does it sound cheesy? in a way, yeah...i can't believe i'm writing this hahaha...you still don't know the feeling? neither do i...
Thursday, September 09, 2004
as you can see, i changed the template. it's not too flashy yet still girly in a way... i wanted to make my own template, but i don't have the patience to understand all these html things...so i just got a template from blogskins and changed the image...so there...i wish i could make my own...if only i had my book here...come on give it back to me sheena...hehehe...give it back to me when your cousin is done...mmm
i am not in the mood to type the rrl...sorry may...laziness is my thing right now...i still haven't finished reading the shining...i'm so lazy...but i'm happy this way...or not...actually i don't know what will make me happy...oh i do know but i don't want to think about it coz it would take a long time to be able to obtain that one...oh well, gotta try to finish that rrl...i just love putting those 3 dots :D...
Friday, September 03, 2004
i had fun today...the dried mangoes were awesome...yummy...i wanna have more...and i laughed most of the time. maybe i should refrain myself from laughing for just a day and be cheerful the next day, the feeling is different...it's like drinking ice cold water after a long walk under the heat of the sun...
i went out with clare, watched a movie. the moviehouse isn't that great, but hey i was with her so i had lots of fun. missed her so much. we were laughing most of the time, and i told her about things i don't normally talk about, i miss the high school days when we all had time to have fun. even if i am on vacation right now, i can't feel it at all. maybe it's because of the thesis, everything is getting old and i'm getting tired of it. ugh...i want this thesis finished, it's draining the energy out of me...
my day is almost perfect, had lots of fun, going to the mall alone wasn't that bad, but then there would always be something that would ruin everything...where do bitches get their bitchiness?...hmmm...
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i don't like hurting other people. but if i do, you probably hurt me badly that's why you are experiencing my wrath. vengeance is oh so sweet...
when i like someone, i like that person for a long time...and sometimes i get hurt...oh most of the time...the problem with me is, i don't move on, i just move on to the next...it's becoming a cycle...what a pity...
i asked so many questions, and i get 3 words for an answer...3 words that are enough to shut me up...hahaha...
i went out with clare, watched a movie. the moviehouse isn't that great, but hey i was with her so i had lots of fun. missed her so much. we were laughing most of the time, and i told her about things i don't normally talk about, i miss the high school days when we all had time to have fun. even if i am on vacation right now, i can't feel it at all. maybe it's because of the thesis, everything is getting old and i'm getting tired of it. ugh...i want this thesis finished, it's draining the energy out of me...
my day is almost perfect, had lots of fun, going to the mall alone wasn't that bad, but then there would always be something that would ruin everything...where do bitches get their bitchiness?...hmmm...
i don't like hurting other people. but if i do, you probably hurt me badly that's why you are experiencing my wrath. vengeance is oh so sweet...
when i like someone, i like that person for a long time...and sometimes i get hurt...oh most of the time...the problem with me is, i don't move on, i just move on to the next...it's becoming a cycle...what a pity...
i asked so many questions, and i get 3 words for an answer...3 words that are enough to shut me up...hahaha...
