means

background music: love song (snake river conspiracy)
location: here in the room i share with my sisters
*uhm no, i am not trying to imitate the format in live journal

usually...err most of the time....ok, i should use always...always,it is a one way sort of thing...and that makes you feel like a stupid piece of shit(nah, maybe just a piece of...crap? ahahaha)...makes you feel desperate...most of the time the last emotion you remember feeling is loneliness(you badly need human warmth...like a hug)...but all of those change when the feeling is reciprocated...hope this lasts for a long time...mmm like forever?