i feel so...

i have no idea. do you know the feeling of having mixed emotions? well, that's what i am feeling right now. i don't know whether i am sad or happy. or maybe i do know what i am feeling, i just don't want to admit it to myself. are you still reading this crap? i guess i wouldn't know coz nobody even bothers to tell me what they think of my blog(nope i'm not trying to sound pitiful) ok so now what...aha...i dunno what to say...i wrote a poem but i do not have the courage to post it here. uh huh i am a chicken, so what? i don't care... i no longer care...ugh i feel so crappy again...why oh why?...hmmm... bakit ka kase pa-cute eh...i'm always confused, i don't know if i should move forward or just back-off...ok now i know...i'm in deep shit again...when will this be over?